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It’s too often, that I don’t understand What’s going on in my world And it’s all I can do To hold on to you You keep me strong When everything is going wrong And my heart is aching And my eyes are watering all night long So I hold on to you You keep me safe From the world and myself You hold my hand through Everything bad You’re my love, my God My heavenly Dad And I know, you won’t let me crash You won’t let me down Cuz you wear the crown, You are the king of everything And I love you And you love me And you will protect me from everything That destroys my heart When I can’t hold on anymore

One day I’ll find someone I love A gift sent from up above Someone to hold me in their arms Someone to keep me from harm Someone I’ll hold in my arms too To cheer up when they’re feeling blue To cuddle with every night And to have fun with in the sunlight Someone as dorky as I We will see eye to eye A perfect match, me and this mysterious being Our lives matching up, the things we’ve been seeing He’ll read books to me, and I to him As nerdy as it sounds, it will be our own personal hymn We’ll cuddle and watch Doctor Who Even Cosplay and write together, too Soul mates, we’ll be Made for each other, him

It was a typical Tuesday morning, I was hungry and on my way to my favourite hunting spot, when I heard a noise behind me. At first I thought it would soon be my breakfast, but then I realized it wasn’t a delicious antelope. I realized this when all of a sudden, a large mass pounced on me! I growled and threw it off of me. I turned around to see it was a wild dog. It got up and barred it’s teeth at me, growling hungrily. I roared at him and smacked him in the face. Leaving bright red scratch marks. That’ll teach him. I thought. He howled in pain and 5 more dogs jumped on me. I should’ve known they traveled in a pack. I

I’m broken All the things pouring out in the open Hot tears stain my cheeks, to begin Then angry red lines mark my skin Then there are the scars too deep for you to see The one’s embedded in my heart like the deepest part of the sea These are the things no one knows The things I never show It’s all a façade, The smile on my face, trying not to fade And show what’s really there All the hurt and pain, stripping me bare Of who I really am, who I’m meant to be Cuz it has me broken, bringing me to my knees Praying for everything to be different, not the same way Praying for God to change me, these are the thing

You say it’s so wrong, you say it’s so bad But what if I told you your thoughts make me sad? The way you feel, your thoughts so strong, Make my heart hurt, like you think I’m wrong You say it’s disgusting, not right, I’ll burn in hell That’s why I keep my secret, why you, I’ll never tell Cuz you won’t understand that I can’t change You’ll say it’s wrong and call me strange You’ll make me feel bad, worse than I do now Not sure how that’s possible, but I’m sure you’ll find out how Because maybe humiliating me enough will change me Making me feel so bad mig

I reach for the rope, to hold me on But it's slipping through my fingers So hard to get a grasp on reality But I keep trying anyway All the things weigh me down Pushing me further downward Making it easier to feel like Falling Falling Falling down Wouldn't it be easier to just let myself fall down Hit rock bottom, the bottom of the ground Cuz when you're at the bottom, at least you know No one can hear the sounds you make below And then you can't feel bad, feel ignored Like no one cares, like they're being bored It's just you and yourself, no one to impress The pain you feel, the weights are lifted off your chest When you'r

I'm reaching the edge I can't hold it in The tears flowing over My heart aches too much My brain thinks too much I can't go on any longer I Am Breaking down Falling down Jumping over the edge into insanity Going insane Can't control my brain All these thoughts consume me And it's scaring me I lay in my bed Can't go anywhere The happiness leaving me My heart's too full My head is too busy I just want to explode I Feel Like Breaking down Falling down Jumping over the edge into insanity Going insane Can't control my brain All these thoughts consume me And it's scaring me

I hate myself, the things I've done I hate my life, not very much fun And every time I try to lift my head up high Reality comes crashing down again Like a plane with a bad engine I feel like an empty shell so ready to explode I hear the things people say People I love I want to argue with them. Tell them how I feel. Tell them who I am. But I know what they'll tell me. They'll tell me I'm wrong. My beliefs? Wrong My words? Wrong My feelings? Wrong My love? Wrong. Everything, wrong wrong wrong. Nothing right Nothing true Everything's wrong.